Intrinsic Fun but Meaningful

Psychedelics are intrinsically fun.   


      that is is its just fun to be high on them.   

      but it's interesting how they always stimulate the bran to new thoughts   

      crazy thoughts   

      thoughts you can't recall   

      great thoughts   

      I've always wondered about the efficacy of those thoughts that were recallled.   

      did they make a difference   

      If those thoughts are ever applied

Joy Daily Companion

  are you surrounded by love   

      encased in love   

      bursting with love   

      or at least joy   

      is joy your daily companion   

Pretending my thoughts matter

Me:    hey Fam chatter

        
Fam Chatter :

      Hi    


Me:
      how are you   


      Are you feeling deep and contemplative or just craving a phish fix   









oh she left   


      ran like the wind   

      I got too personal with my question   

      not everyone wants to to be fam   

      they just want to consume a service   

      and there's nothing wrong with that it's a choice   

      I'm glad I didnt make that choice   

      it's funny because when it was just the early mixlr crew I was really paranoid   

      I had never really focused on the .net ethos that people meet each other.   


      I had always treate the internet as it's own thing. What happened there stayed there.   


      Never belived that it could actually have the real world effect of making friendships.   

      So it scared me a little at first. People wanted to exchange cell phone numbers and plan meetings   

      And how really good to each other everyone was.   

      I started opening up to them.   

      I trusted them enough.   

      and I didn't get burned   


      So I did finally meet some real life mixlr crew... I guess we were fammers too by then.   


      I got very sick and they helped me.   

      such genrosity and kndness floored me.   

      I'n my life. only family and strangers have helped me at times I needed it.   

      So this group of people I'd just met doing so much was amazing.   

      It gave me a little hope.


  

      And they seemed to like both personalities.   

      I'm tremendously shy in preson.   

      but online I can be kind of a nut job.   

      Interestingly both personalities are not interesting to most people.   


      so It's not like I invetnted a way to be online that would make me more desireable   

      acceptances by big groups is not my destiny.   

      It hurts. I wish I were the type that reached more people.  

      but that would not be me   


      and who knows what I would lose in the process.   


      The trick it seems if you are a freak in life is to find your own way and survive.   

      Survive has been my mantra for many tough times.   

      it's almost the categorical imperative in darwin.   

      And from a spiritual perspective I'm here to do or be something.   

      I'm a little scared of dying because I've done some bad things   

      but mostly I am excited about dying when the time is right   

      my body will reject me like all the friends I never got to know in high school   


      I watched my mother die very slowly to cancer. And from that I got confirmation that       you are not your body really   


      something about us is eternal   

      I think believing that is very helpful.   

      we're not even just our brain. our spirit has emergent properties   


      If you can really dig this kind of music (unusual playlist for wfam) it takes you        places like a long phish jam. And that journey can clarify things too.   


      Well I have expressed many things   

      some of them quite vulnerable   

      but I want to live an open life   

      I can handle any trolls fucking with me   

      I expect no one will really read it   

      and that's okay   


      so I guess this show was just an exercise for me to write a little essay about me.   


      that's a waste of resources  

This Jam

This jam has teeth

And claws

Collaborator

OMG BYRNE'S TOURING WITH A GORILLAZ COLLABORATOR THAT SEALS IT

Junk

like, that i photobomb cat pics with my junk

Winds

Something about winds.

Don't

Don’t meh me

Liver

my liver thinks i'm a dick

We win!!!

https://www.last.fm/music/Phish/+listeners

We're the #1 phish listener overall on last.fm. 

Hamstring

I pulled a hamstring

From dancing to fam

Without stretching

Damn the stretch shamers

I got it by David Bowie

they had me at ub40

Chili

Im having chili

And cornbread

Cause life is joy

WFAM has skills

Wfam has weird ass psychic abilities

It plays the perfect show at perfect moments

Beware its power

Now

Phish is back on the stream for those of you just chatting

Bed

I’m not going to bed

It’s soam

They walked away

They walked away. Now I don't need to worry about this situation anymore hooray

Amswered Questions

after a second it's gone
a second second brings a chance for redemption
but then it's feathers in the dawn

alice laid her hand down on the pillow
I looked from a distance for a very long time


the whole web of lines could say more
but since there would be specific questions
I bent and looked closely
troubled childbirth
long life out living many lovers
too much strife
not enough laughter

but I can't tell her that so bluntly
so I take out a smoke and skip away
"Jam On Sister Girl"

Baked Fish

Jeff was baking a fish thunder crashed and a boat slid into the kitchen thru the window linda was gasping for air and stood up with a firarm taking out the sopha

Spooky

I had to sneak outside quick and somehow turning on music made it feel less spooky.

Missed Connections

I was hoping I might find you in the mixlr room to chat it up a bit, but alas you weren't there.

By Now

Haha I thought by now you’d know that I wouldn’t find keeping touch creepy!

Waste

All I know is I whispered the lyrics of Waste into my moms ears while it was going on as I wanted her to know what the lyrics were

Your Pitch

your pitch was strong and well reasoned and designed perfectly to ensnare me. color me intrigued. i will consider your offer. i have felt very busy lately and not willing to take anything new on. i will get back to you on this subject